The day before induction

February 22, 2010 in Multiples,Pregnancy | Comments (3)

I had a doctor’s appointment this morning, and I am one centimeter dilated and 90 percent effaced. Dr. Dershaw seemed pleased, and I am going to the hospital tonight. He will deliver my sons, Alexander and Daniel, tomorrow.

It seems kind of crazy that I am sitting on the here on the couch watching TV writing this, and tomorrow I will be a mom to twin boys. Maybe it is because this is the last day of my pregnancy, but I cannot help but think about how lucky I am. I decided to get pregnant and I did, which in and of itself is not always easy. I also know there was a greater power involved that gave us two. As most of my friends and family know, Greg and I did not jump into parenthood lightly. This is something that we were back and forth about for years. I never really fawned over my friends children, and I certainly didn’t ever envy their lack of sleep or the three to four weeks advance notice that a night out would require in order to secure babysitting, etc. I really despised pregnancy discussions, and felt like that often solidified my “decision” to not have children. Just because I was closing in on 30, I still didn’t feel like I needed to follow anyone else’s timetable but my own. I am not saying that I didn’t feel the societal pressure, but I felt good when one friend said she respected me for not just doing what was expected after getting married…and I could tell she meant it. I wasn’t going to rush into having children for anyone. It was not a priority.

Greg and I have a lot of love and respect for each other, and for a long time, we felt like we had it made. We had two decent incomes, a nice house that left us with plenty of expendable funds for trips and wherever we felt like going or whatever we felt like doing, and I am especially grateful for all we have done together – just the two of us. Our love of crazy adventures is one of the things that has drawn us together; for example, celebrating the 25th anniversary of Elvis’s death in Memphis, the Rockabilly Weekenders in Las Vegas; and spending Thanksgiving at the top of the Guinness Factory in Dublin, just to name a few. We had no one to answer to, no real reason to not sleep in on the weekends, and our band could take as many gigs as we wanted. To my surprise, it eventually was not enough.

We have been together nine wonderful years and will be married for six in July. To watch him over the past year or two with his niece, Sonali, and with our friend’s children, I knew I would be missing a huge opportunity by not expanding our family. Basically, I felt the pang of emptiness that people sometimes describe.

I am not going to tell you that I loved every minute of this pregnancy, but I am going to tell you that I wouldn’t change a thing. I had an extremely healthy pregnancy for having twins. The beginning was rough, and the end has not been a bed of roses, but the middle was pretty cool. I have a very supportive people around me, especially Greg, my parents, and my best friends. I was able to work right up until the end, which gives me the next three months to concentrate on my sons and learning how to be a mother.

Having two children simultaneously prompted us to quickly put our little house on the market, purchase a larger more expensive one, and forced us to make some hard decisions. We will be going down to one income, at least for the first year, and we won’t be taking romantic trips to Jamaica or the Bahamas for quite some time. But what we will have is two little boys that will depend on us for everything. Two gifts that we were given that will look like us, learn from us, love us, and love each other. I want to teach them to play the guitar and drums, and take them to Disneyworld when they are five. I want to have big birthday parties for them, and cut up oranges for their soccer games. I want them to find their passion in life and support them whole-heartedly. I can’t believe I get to start all this tomorrow. I better go take a nap.

3 Responses to “The day before induction”

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  1. Comment by Rebekah — February 22, 2010 at 10:55 pm  

    Love You Amy & Greg.
    We cannot wait to meet the boys!!

  2. Comment by Carrie Cross — February 23, 2010 at 3:12 pm  

    I sure hope you got that nap! Today begins the greatest adventure of your lives!! Like your pregnancy, it will not always be wonderful, but it will always be awesome. You two will do fine, with each others help, and with that of those around you. Congratulations!! We can’t wait to meet your new babies whenever we get back up north!!

  3. Comment by Kelli — February 25, 2010 at 10:23 am  

    You are probably holding them right now! I hope you post a birth story when u get a chance!